It's been forever since I came here last time. Xanga has been neglected for a while (a long one though) because I have another place to take care of.(Wretch) Also, most of my friends don't have xanga and I know not many people come here to say hi then why should I pay so much attention on xanga? However, this is the advantage though. I am receiving too many responses in Wretch and sometimes that can be irritating. After all, too many voices that drown my own one isn't too good. I guess I need a more peaceful and quiet place to think through my life and my future. ----------- It's been several months and I just can't figure out the blueprint of my future. I came here and read through the posts in the past. I don't understand how did I get so motivated before. And so goal-oriented. What happened to me now? I used to be motivated, excited about things and hating to waste more minutes. And now, I am sitting on my bed listening to the clock ticking.....how many minutes I have wasted! It's already end of 2007. 2008 is just around the corner and I still don't see a way out of the situation for this very moment. I wonder what happened to ME! It's so me and so not me. I know if I don't do anything now, I will certainly regret while I am counting down and embracing 2008. I know it's been several months and I should already do something, not like right now, winding about something. Can't believe I am becoming whom I hated the most. Can't believe I ended up in this situation, not knowing where to run to. SO sad. And I know .... I am the savier. No know can pull me out of this loop. Only myself. How sad. How can a person without motivation and passion for life rescue someone who has the same issues. Ridiculous huh... I am just sad. | 
